WHY

i want to scream from the top of my lungs.

literally.  

i want to scream until I no longer have a voice. 

"WHY?!" 

"WHY THE FUCK DID YOU TAKE HER?!"

"WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT TO US?"

"TO MY DAD?"

"WHY WOULD YOU EVER DO THAT?!" 

i never really knew that my heart could ever ache this much.   

and it's pure agony.

Never again will my soul find true peace...until i see you again, mom.  never.

LAZY

I really don't know what's wrong with me! I have SOOO much to do and I actually have had the time to work on things (well, just yesterday and today), but I just don't feel like it!  I could be catching up on albums or school work, but I'm laying around just serfing the web...oh and yesterday I took a 2hr nap!!! God, it felt so good!!!  

Anyway, I have found so much inspo on the web, along with a bunch of stuff I want to by.  I'll pass on the coolness:

These make me want business cards...but for what, i don't know.

This lady records her day with awesome collages.  I love this idea!

I want to take amazing photos too.

I need this asap. I actually can't believe I haven't bought one yet.

I also came across this repulsive, yet creative halloween costume...

that's all for now, maybe i'll actually get up and do/make something....

i look barbaric

me: " god. I'm so tired. I haven't even washed my face today"

farah: "i can tell. you haven't combed your hair.  you look barbaric"

me: "oh thanks"

there's nothing better than to have a friend that can just tell you the straight up truth!! hey, it doesn't bother me..someone's gonna have to tell you the truth, right?!

So, i know i've been MIA for a LONG time.  This is what i've been up to...

1. got into a huge fight with my sister-in-law two weeks before the wedding and it lasted quite a while...thank god that's settled!

2. went to my brother's wedding.  it actually wasn't as hard as i thought it was gonna be without my mom, but it was a blast and absolutely beautiful.

3. busy with 4 300 level classes.  all i gotta say about that is i fucking hate writing papers! really, i do.

4. went to Dayton for adam's step-brother's wedding.  it was the most beautiful ceremony i've every attended.  the way they combined the 2 cultures (indian and german) was absolutely amazing!  drooled over all the beautiful sari's..i wish i had one on.

5. falling behind on my albums.  5 to be exact. the brides are starting to hound me. fuck.

BUT, that didn't stop me from scrapping!!!