it's crazy how life can change in a blink of an eye...and then it just leaves you. just like that. gone...and you're left sad and lonely. lately, i'm just not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. is it even there?
this time (2nd time) around, the holidays absolutely suck! surprisingly, last year, just three weeks or so after my mom died, i couldn't wait to put up the tree and start decorating. i think i was just in shock and tried to make things as "normal" as possible because this year is a whole different story. fuck the music. fuck the tree. fuck the gifts. fuck the snow. and fuck all the happy people. oh and a big FUCK YOU to new years if brings me another round of a miserable shit.
But, with all that said, i will try to make the best out of this "jolly" season.
p.s. i''m feeling really creative lately (but i've been to lazy to actually create anything)