Tuesday, November 25, 2008

ho ho ho

it's crazy how life can change in a blink of an eye...and then it just leaves you.  just like that. gone...and you're left sad and lonely. lately, i'm just not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.  is it even there?

this time (2nd time) around, the holidays absolutely suck! surprisingly, last year, just three weeks or so after my mom died, i couldn't wait to put up the tree and start decorating. i think i was just in shock and tried to make things as "normal" as possible because this year is a whole different story.  fuck the music. fuck the tree. fuck the gifts. fuck the snow.  and fuck all the happy people. oh and a big FUCK YOU to new years if brings me another round of a miserable shit.
But, with all that said, i will try to make the best out of this "jolly" season.  

p.s. i''m feeling really creative lately (but i've been to lazy to actually create anything)


Staci Compher said...

..I know...don't you miss those days of being in shock?? Even though it was so fresh...your mind puts you in this safe bubble from reality...but before you know it "pop" that bubble is gone...and reality...hurts!! and sucks!! as you would say...FUCK YOU reality!! love ya...girl

Vee said...

i can relate, my dad died five years ago three days after thanksgiving and it always bad feeling around the holidays because that is when you think of them the most. hang in there sweetie :)

Anonymous said...

have a baby please

cousin jen